How Big is Your Spider?

By Cassie Rosales – Worship Leader

My sister was recently married in California and my family decided to rent a 100-year-old hacienda by the beach. Sounded like a great idea … in theory. No A/C meant we had to leave the windows open all the time. Well, as you know, with old houses come a lot of creepy crawly creatures that find their way in somehow. I will pause here and tell you that I am irrationally, absolutely, terrifyingly arachnophobic. It’s really kind of sad.

For the first two days, my gem of a husband committed spider genocide in the house—probably killing 20 spiders. They were all small spiders, so whenever I saw one I just ran and got him. One day, as I was standing in the kitchen leaning against the counter drinking coffee, a giant, and I mean giant, black wolf spider ran from under the counter, by my stomach, and across the counter by my hand. I bolted out of the kitchen into the hallway, hyperventilating until I got dizzy, and I had to be assisted over to the stairs. They never found the spider.

Now, I know what you’re thinking … a spider? Really? I can tell you that I think the same thing every time I have an episode. But, we all have a “spider.” Yours may be heights, or rejection, or stage fright, or public speaking. Fear grabs ahold of us, and if we don’t speak God’s truth, renewing our minds, we open the door to being held captive by our fears.

I want to share a little bit of what God has been teaching me lately. When I say lately, I mean the past few years. The truth is, I struggle greatly with fear. It is a battle that permeates many areas of my life and constantly threatens to derail a bit of the light inside me. If you think about it, the enemy uses the spirit of fear so much in all of us. It is one of the most effective tools for him because we convince ourselves that it is our own failure, and that we are weak and alone in this battle. This is a lie, and our Father has already given us the tools to confront and overcome any fears we may have.

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7

We have to remember is that God is in control.

“He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, ‘Quiet! Be still!’ Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.  He said to his disciples, ‘Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?’” Mark 4:39-40

He is the Creator of this world and knows the beginning, as well as the end. He is our heavenly Father and loves us. Remembering these things when we face anxieties allows us to see how awesome in power our God is, which makes our fears seems so small in comparison. He has given us His Word and His words are strength. When we are afraid, we need to seek Him and remember the promises given to us in the Bible. He speaks to us every day in His Word and every problem, worry, or fear can be spoken into by seeking what He says in the Scripture.

“Peace is what I leave with you; it is my own peace that I give you. I do not give it as the world does. Do not be worried and upset; do not be afraid.” John 14:27

Going back to the spider, what was it really going to do to me besides run by? It had only the power I gave it. By praying in those moments and asking for God’s help, I give Him the control. I need to remember that I have access to my Lord through prayer, at all times and in all places, and He will listen. He is our strength when we can’t be strong. What is out there that God can’t handle? He walks with us always. We are never out of His sight.

“For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, ‘Do not fear; I will help you.  Do not be afraid, for I myself will help you,’ declares the Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.” Isaiah 41:13-14

I am not saying that you will never be afraid or that you will never feel fear. I am not saying that there will never be times where fear overtakes you. But, what you do with that fear determines how big the spider becomes in your mind.  If we seek the Lord and ask for His help there is nothing that can overtakes us and nothing that can cause us to become ineffective in our mission.

How Big is Your Spider?

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