Cassandra Spicer – CLI Student Ministries Intern
One of my favorite things in the Central Leadership Institute (CLI) room is the chalk wall. The wall started with the six goals for our internship and over time we have filled the wall with serious, insightful, challenging, and sometimes hilarious quotes from our speakers. I find myself almost every day reading through all the quotes during the last few quiet moments of our SOAP devotions.
Since I sit in the same seat every day, one quote is always in my direct eyesight, a quote from Cal. He said,
“You will be known by your adequacy, God will be known by your inadequacy.”
There are some days when I wake up feeling completely inadequate for what I’m called to do. I look at myself in the mirror and wonder why God has chosen me. I can’t help but wonder if I’m good enough to accomplish the things I’m supposed to do or confident enough to handle new situations I’ve never faced before.
When I think of my own inadequacies, I can’t help but think of Abraham and Sarah. God told this very old couple that they were going to have a promised son to begin a nation of people more numerous than the stars in the sky. Talk about someone being inadequate, this couple had been unable to bear children for nearly 100 years. When Abraham and Sarah took matters into their own hands, Ishmael was born, but that wasn’t in God’s plan for them. The glory for this son was given to Abraham. But God was able to show up in their situation, bringing them a son, the promised son named Isaac, and God brought glory to Himself through their weaknesses.
When we enter situations and accomplish things through our own abilities and strengths, the job can get done but God will never be known through it. We will take all the glory for ourselves because we accomplished it without any help. People will start noticing what we can do and we will become comfortable in our adequacy. We are creating our own Ishmael’s. As uncomfortable as it is to feel inadequate, I want to find myself in those situations where I don’t feel good enough to be there. Why, you might ask? Because God will be known through my weaknesses. My inadequacies make room for God’s strength and His overwhelming power to accomplish something much greater than I ever could on my own in my own strength. He is known to everyone around me and He gets the glory He deserves. He can create those Isaacs in my life, His promises can be fulfilled in me when I step aside and humbly sit before Him.
“But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”- 2 Corinthians 12:9
As hard as it is, I confidently walk outside the borders of my comfort zone, where I feel completely inadequate, so that the Most High God can show His amazing glory to accomplish something through me.
Are you willing to step out of your comfort zone to see how God shows up?