Brooke Norton | Gilbert Student LifeGroup Pastor
I take pride in being capable. I never played sports in school… I never came in at the top of my class… I never won an award… But there was a drive inside of me to be good enough. For my whole life, I never let someone tell me that I couldn’t accomplish something. I was driven and I was passionate. When I entered Bible College, the negative voices grew louder. Many people began to tell me that I couldn’t preach or that I wouldn’t make a good Youth Pastor because I wasn’t funny enough or even worse because I was a woman. The pride inside of me grew and I set out on a mission to prove them wrong. In my opinion, I was more capable than ever!
I began to speak up in the classroom. I started to learn more about who God was and his calling for my life. I was given opportunities to preach in the church I grew up in. I started working for the church and learned at the feet of an amazing Youth Pastor. My start in ministry spurred my relationship with Jesus forward. I began to see Jesus for who he truly was. And I felt myself becoming more like him every day.
This was a very good thing. My relationship with Jesus was stronger than ever. But overtime… I began to elevate ministry over following Jesus. It became the very thing that I dreamt about and the first thing I thought about in the morning. I constantly wanted to become better at everything because I didn’t see the good outcomes from my work in ministry. I wanted to be good enough but it wasn’t enough. My drive to be “capable” ate away at me.
I like to think that being capable means that you are able to accomplish something or that you have the drive to complete the task at hand. You see, I’ve always had the drive to get something done! But at this point in my life, I am beginning to doubt that I “can” accomplish things on my own. I like to think of myself as a capable and strong willed woman. But here’s the truth… This mindset can be harmful. I can’t be capable without Jesus. We are only capable with Jesus.
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” – Ephesians 3:20-21
If we think we can get through our lives without the power of Jesus then we will fail every time. I’ve learned that following Jesus out weighs my “success” in ministry. Jesus Is ABLE to do more than we ask! So the next time you are trying to accomplish something alone, remember this verse in Ephesians. You + the power of Jesus = capable!