Adrian Darsee – Programming Director
My wife will be giving birth to our third child this coming Monday at 9am. It’s a scheduled C-section. As you could imagine we are both thrilled to have another little one in our family. We have an 8 year old boy and a 6 year old girl and have been blessed by them immensely. The birth of a child always stir up many emotions. Everything from excitement to fear. As a father there are many practical concerns that come up. The most prominent would be “how am I going to feed another child?!” However, the practical concerns don’t have me rattled this time around. It’s something more.
Bottom line…our kids do not come into this world “easily.” I’m not talking about the process of childbirth itself. I’m talking during the pregnancy and immediately after. We have had our fair share of miscarriages, including twins, that have rocked us to our core. When our son was born he had the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck which forced an emergency C-section. When our daughter was born two years later she had a condition called “pulmonary hypertension.” Basically her lungs were not supplying enough oxygen to her heart. Doctors told us right away that she may not make it. She spent the next month or so fighting for her life at Riley children’s hospital in Indianapolis. It was the hardest time in my life. Our faith was tested. By the grace of God we made it through that valley of life. More importantly both of our children our happy and healthy. So…what gives? Because of these traumatic experiences in my journey as a parent I find myself full of fear. I would consider myself to be someone who likes to have control of a situation. I have no control over what happens on Monday. None. Will our little boy come into this world with without any problems? Most likely. But nothing is a guarantee.
I would consider my relationship with God to be very strong. However, I find it difficult not to be distracted by the past. It’s difficult not to wince just a little bit as our new little boy comes into this world. Much like the feeling you get just before the first big drop on a roller coaster. The anticipation is intense and you feel your stomach in your throat right as you clear the the top. But here’s what I have learned about being a parent. Once you get past that first drop it is a blast. It’s full of twists and turns that keep life exciting! However, I am human. I will make mistakes which include doubting God through this whole process. Though, I have found myself drawing closer to God these last few weeks. My dependence on Him is hourly. Is that uncomfortable at times? Absolutely. Is it beneficial? Absolutely. God has it in control and knows our new son quite well already.
So…welcome to this world Lincoln Darsee. I may not be a perfect dad but I will love you unconditionally and will always be there for you when you need me. God…is…good.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified
because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you;
he will never leave you nor forsake you.